Anti-Sociality
I have a feeling that lately some people think I may be being a bit anti-social. I just wanted to say this isn't my intention at all. For example, today I turned down going out, and Boote even rang me on his mobile asking me to come out (with the camera). I declined again. Today that's mainly been because I'm exhausted and really didn't feel like it, but the camera wouldn't have worked anyway. Too dark I think, and it's not charged anyway so no power. But that's a side note. The truth is I haven't been feeling to great.
And that's a kind of reoccuring theme. I haven't been feeling too great lately in general. I've been feeling oddly tired and restless at the same time, which kind of makes me not want to do much. Couple that with doing things like football, or going out to walk around which seems pointless, and I just don't enjoy it, and spend the time either feeling ill or feeling like I should be doing something else. All the time I was up in Lancaster, I felt like I should get back because there was something I had to do, something that was coming up that I had to be ready for or something. But there isn't. For the first time ever, there isn't, this holiday is completely free. Maybe it's the sense of Uni hanging over me, I dunno, but it's making me feel very odd.
Basically I wanted to say I'm sorry for being a bit anti-social to everybody, and that I'm feeling a bit odd lately. Not sleeping that much which makes me very tired and therefore not feeling great, and whenever I'm out doing things that don't seem too worthwhile, I feel really restless. For example, going in town the other day to look for jobs was such a waste I felt so restless I just wanted to get home (to do nothing, oddly, but I felt it better than wasting time out, I don't know why). At the other end of the stick, at Paington the other day, I sat there and thought there was nowhere I'd rather be, and nothing I'd rather be doing.
It's odd, and basically I'm not sure why sometimes I feel like doing things and sometimes I don't (to the extent that I have gone out when I don't feel like it, feeling like I was lying and being there for the sake of being there). But I wanted to apologise to people feeling I was being anti-social. I love you guys, and I honestly believe I'm one of the luckiest guys in existance to have known you all. What's more I love spending time with you all, and so this whole me not going out much thing is entirely me feeling odd, not anything to do with what we do or how we do it or anything. I just hope nobody feels I'm being too anti-social, and I'm sorry if that's the impression I've been giving off, or worse, that I don't want to spend time with you guys, because I do.
Anyway, that's enough self-centered ranting from me. Tune in tomorrow for the return of a grudgematch in which I completely avoid talking about myself!
And the topic?
Battle of the Time Machines! Just what is the greatest fictional time machine?
And that's a kind of reoccuring theme. I haven't been feeling too great lately in general. I've been feeling oddly tired and restless at the same time, which kind of makes me not want to do much. Couple that with doing things like football, or going out to walk around which seems pointless, and I just don't enjoy it, and spend the time either feeling ill or feeling like I should be doing something else. All the time I was up in Lancaster, I felt like I should get back because there was something I had to do, something that was coming up that I had to be ready for or something. But there isn't. For the first time ever, there isn't, this holiday is completely free. Maybe it's the sense of Uni hanging over me, I dunno, but it's making me feel very odd.
Basically I wanted to say I'm sorry for being a bit anti-social to everybody, and that I'm feeling a bit odd lately. Not sleeping that much which makes me very tired and therefore not feeling great, and whenever I'm out doing things that don't seem too worthwhile, I feel really restless. For example, going in town the other day to look for jobs was such a waste I felt so restless I just wanted to get home (to do nothing, oddly, but I felt it better than wasting time out, I don't know why). At the other end of the stick, at Paington the other day, I sat there and thought there was nowhere I'd rather be, and nothing I'd rather be doing.
It's odd, and basically I'm not sure why sometimes I feel like doing things and sometimes I don't (to the extent that I have gone out when I don't feel like it, feeling like I was lying and being there for the sake of being there). But I wanted to apologise to people feeling I was being anti-social. I love you guys, and I honestly believe I'm one of the luckiest guys in existance to have known you all. What's more I love spending time with you all, and so this whole me not going out much thing is entirely me feeling odd, not anything to do with what we do or how we do it or anything. I just hope nobody feels I'm being too anti-social, and I'm sorry if that's the impression I've been giving off, or worse, that I don't want to spend time with you guys, because I do.
Anyway, that's enough self-centered ranting from me. Tune in tomorrow for the return of a grudgematch in which I completely avoid talking about myself!
And the topic?
Battle of the Time Machines! Just what is the greatest fictional time machine?
posted by Li at 12:09 AM
1 Comments:
i was feeling a similar way the other day. the simple fact is we have nothing to worry about now, and its such an unusual feeling that it takes time to adjust. Don't worry too muhc, just try to do things u enjoy in u're time off, cas its the last time u won't have to worry about anything EVER! lol. So concentrate on simply having as much fun as possible. k?
Post a Comment
<< Home